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Wednesday
Sep092009
In my own image
Recently I came across this photo of myself. What ever happened to Batgirl? I thought, as though she were the girl who sat behind me in pre-algebra. Somehow we lost touch along the way.
She didn't mind wearing a cape or being photographed. She didn't worry what her thighs looked like in the tights or even really care what others thought. But it's more than that.
There's a "hello, life!" look in her eyes that I want back. She just knew what she wanted to be. Or who she was.
Batgirl, that's who.
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Recently I've had the occasion to need a more formal bio photo. The people who asked for it gave me a deadline of the end of August and, while I kept intending to get it done, I was really more in summer mode. You know: procrastination + que sera, sera attitude. Plus denial. Finally, at the end of the month, I put my camera in Maddy's hands, stood in the spot of our house with the best natural light, and said "have at it!" It was after a Sunday nap and I forgot to brush my hair. That's how bad I am at being a photo subject. I did put in earrings, however.
(You may have noticed a dearth of photos of myself here on this site. I loath having my photo taken. I much prefer taking them. So this exercise was wayyyyy out of my comfort zone.)
But Maddy was the ideal photographer (for me): very positive and patient and open to suggestions. She even got me to do some shampoo commercial action hair flips and red carpet over-the-shoulder gazes. She did a great job. Here's (because I know you're wondering, not because I've suddenly embraced self-photos) what we decided on
although I would have been just as happy to send in the batgirl photo and call it done.* * *
Sam got a Wii for his birthday in August, which means we are all enjoying his birthday bounty. One day he asked if he could do a Mii of me (which is a character that you create and can have as your avatar when you play a game). It was hilarious to see him decide on the nose and the hair and the eyebrows and the size. He made me thinner and better looking than I really am, which was very kind of him.
Or maybe that's how he really sees me?
Making me think: if the people I love think I look fine, maybe I should stop worrying and get on with things.
I think that's what Batgirl would do.
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p.s. I'm back. I think. I'm dipping my toe back in the waters of everyday life, after a great visit from my mom (she left today + I'll be posting some of our adventures for record-keeping sake) and our family's August journeys. Bless you, September, with your routines and nesting. I'm looking forward to both.
09.9.2009
Reader Comments (13)
I too think you should stop worrying. You look great and should consider donning a batgirl suit for Halloween this year. I find you facinating, full of life, and adventurous! I'm glad you're back and I am also glad to be back to routine & schedules.
I was thinking today that you hadn't posted in a while--I'm glad you're back! And, that picture is great!! We should meet up sometime soon for soup.
noe was batgirl for halloween last year. same look in her eye. i wonder what her thirty-something views will be.
also, i have noticed that there are some totally sexy and trampy adult superhero costumes out there. i noticed when i ripped them out of my boys' halloween costume catalog as they were oogling them. so just in case you get the urge, the opportunities are still there.
I think you are beautiful in both pictures!
Really.
Really, really.
Happy September!
I like your blonde, flippy hair. Very carefree cool.
I La La LOVE your portrait! Captured the beautiful you that I know and love. You are gorgeous, and it's high time you knew that. Batgirl needs to find a place in your head for sure.
I am so glad you're back. Been missing my little dose of Annie.
P.S. LOVE the longer hair. Looks fabulous on you.
Hey! I can leave comments on here, again. Yeah! It's been a while since I tried. I just couldn't for so long that I gave up. Glad I checked again. You must have changed the comment format?
Anyhoo...enough about me. Let's talk about your beautiful picture. You are truly radiant. And I see it in your kids too. You all have this, "happy, life is good, light of Christ" glow.
I've loved reading about your summer adventures. You had a good one. It seemed very enchanted to me!
i can tell by your writings that you are beautiful but now i can see that it's inside and out.
You were a beautiful little girl and you are a beautiful woman.
Lulu wants to be batgirl. I'll have to show her your photo.
Welcome back!
And I think you have still that "hello, life" look. You DO know who you want to be and who you are.
I totally feel that "hello life" feel here on your blog. And if you haven't already seen this from LL's blog, you must read this article of good news about thighs:
http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,546500,00.html?test=latestnews
And you DO look fine.
Oh, so fine.
Great post. I had to post some pictures of myself today, and it was excruciating. (Your is better than mine).
This just tugs at my heart, Batgirl! You were once and still are adorable, with those beautiful, warm brown eyes. And you're MINE, heh-heh.Love, Mabentley